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True Colors Shining Through?

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For our last MOPS meeting we had the moms take a True Colors Personality Assessment. Quite interesting. I took it after since I worked in a room and the results BUGGED me. They still do.

Almost everyone I know thought I’d be a Gold. I knew I’d be a Blue even though I didn’t want to be a Blue. Blue annoys me. Mostly because I annoy myself. Other Blues don’t bug me so much (okay, yes, sometimes they do b/c I notice things about myself in them) but I.DO.NOT.WANT.TO.BE.A.BLUE.

What’s a Blue you ask?


  • Sensitive To Needs Of Others.
  • Sincere. Expresses Appreciation.
  • Cooperative. Collaborative. Creative.
  • Caring. Team Builder And Player.
  • People Person. Engages Others.
  • Artistic. Inspirational. Spiritual.
  • Inclusive. Mediator. Peacemaker.
  • Idealistic. Intuitive. Romantic. Loyal.
  • Seeks Unity And Harmony. Caretaker.

And what’s a Gold?


  • Respects Authority Rules, Routines, Policies.
  • Alligant, Faithful, Dependable, Prepared, Efficient.
  • Remembers The Traditions That Work. Values Family.
  • Work Comes Before Play. Practical. Systematic. Orderly.
  • Identifies With Groups. Strives For A Sense Of Security.
  • Thorough, Sensible, Convential, Proper.
  • A Right Way To Do Everything. Stick-To-Itivness.
  • Evaluates Actions As Right Or Wrong.
  • Stable. Organized. Punctual. Helpful.

It confused me why so many people thought I’d be a Gold instead of a Blue. If you know me well and I’ve trusted you enough to be vulnerable around you, you know I’m Blue to the core. But I give off the Gold hoping it will compensate for the Blue parts I don’t like. Which parts don’t I like? People person, mediator, peacemaker, romantic, seeks unity and harmony, caretaker. There are other definitions that say that Blue’s are emotionally driven and make choices based on emotions. I don’t like that either.

So in my efforts to NOT be so…… BLUE…… I come across as Gold. Pretty much everything that equates to Gold I admire, so I strive for that. And it’s not true to me. Being GOLD on the outside when I’m BLUE on the inside leaves me…. mixed up. hurt. misunderstood. confused.

Why have I done this?

Blue’s don’t get respect as much as Gold’s do.

Blue’s make irrational choices based on feelings.

Blue’s tend to bend over backwards to accomodate others. Gold’s don’t.

Blue’s are called Drama Queen’s and are seen as overly emotional and can’t control themselves.

Blue’s are NEVER taken seriously and have to work harder in order to be.

I hate being BLUE.

But dang it, being treated like I’m Gold hasn’t been good for my Blue heart.

(sorry for speaking in color codes! ha!)



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*YAWN* Will this kid EVER sleep more? I am feeling at my wits end. I told Jake this morning that I am not sure how much more of this NOT sleeping I can handle. I have resorted to drinking coffe with just half and half…. SO NOT ME. It’s helped keep my eyes open, but that’s about it.
It’s so nice outside today. I have been LOVING this summer. I absolutely hate HOT HOT HOT weather, so this year has been nice for me. I wish the boys would go outside today, but they don’t want to, and I am too tired to round them up to take them to the park. Dylan has been watching his Nick Jr. videos this morning. I am too tired to protest.
The other day we went to my friend Angela’s grandparents house for the afternoon. They have a big in-ground pool and Angela has a friend visiting from Germany named Nina. Nina takes GREAT pictures and she took a ton of the boys. They are sooooo good. I love them. Ange dropped them off yesterday morning when she was walking her dog and now I am trying to download them to an album. The boys had so much fun! Dylan mostly swam in the pool with Angela…Aidan was a bit apprehensive about it. I loved watching them though yesterday. They were having a blast! I was nervous though the whole time, even though I enjoyed hanging out and visiting. Angela and I MAYBE get together twice a year to visit so this was nice. I was nervous b/c of the pool (no fence around it) and b/c of the fish pond. Aidan was loving the pond and kept getting too close to it and he kept RUNNING towards the pool. Dylan ran by the pool once and I about lost my breath. They aren’t used to being around a pool like that so they didn’t understand why we kept jumping on them about it. At one point at the pond, Dylan teetered and I thought I would have a heart attack. While it is nice to visit and play around a pool, I am so glad we don’t have one b/c I would be on pins and needles all the time. Overall it was a great afternoon though. I am so glad we got to spend time up there with them and visit. Angela’s grandparents were home too and her mom and one of her brothers came up. They were like a second family to me growing up so it was so nice to catch up. πŸ˜€
I just got off the phone with the nurse at the Ped’s office and they want me to give Owen a suppository! OMG! =O This should be fun. He hasn’t pooped in 2 weeks now. 😦 I just realized that this morning. I knew he hadn’t pooped in a while but I didn’t realize until today that it’s been two weeks already. 😦 Poor little fella.
I was supposed to go shopping with Mom yesterday for baby shower stuff but I decided to stay home instead and do NOTHING and not feel guilty about it. Trying not to feel guilty about it. I mean NOTHING too. I did not cleaning or anything. I just wanted to veg. Last night we went to the PHIL WICKHAM concert at church. It was a cool concert and I really liked the guy that sang before him. Jake liked him too. The girl that sang before him had such a pretty voice too. She was cute. Kacie said she was younger than us too….that surprised me. After the concert I signed up for this thing called “MOCHA CLUB”….. basically another one of those deals where you send money to this organization to help orphans in other countries. What got me was the story this guy told about…..that the number one cause of death for orphans in this one country (don’t remember which one) isn’t disease or starvation, it’s being eaten alive by hyennas b/c they have to sleep outside b/c the orphanage isn’t big enough. UGH. I was instantly sick and started crying thinking about my babies. I told Jake “we are signing up, end of discussion.” LOL You got to name your own “team” too (not sure why yet, I guess I’ll figure it out later) and I named it DAO. πŸ˜› I thought that was appropriate. Dylan, Aidan, Owen. πŸ™‚ Anyway…..
I was excited to get out without ANY of the kids for a while. I needed a break. 😦 It’s funny b/c I feel like I need a break, but I LOVE doing nothing with them and just watching them be funny. I just love to LOOK at them. πŸ™‚ Even when we’re all grumpy.
Dylan was sitting with me on the couch while I fed Owen and he was watching Ruby and Max, a cartoon about bunnies and they were dressing Max up like a baby and Dylan said “we don’t have any babies HERE!” and I said “oh really, what is Owen?” and he said “Owen is a FAT baby!” AH HA HA HA!! heehee I couldn’t stop laughing.
Tonight we are going to the races with Mom. We’re taking Dylan and Aidan and leaving Owen with my grandma. I think the boys will like it. Mom is bringing McKenna too. Mom picked up ear muffler looking things for the kids to wear so the noise doesn’t hurt them. It was too loud for me at some points, not all, but enough so that I don’t want the boys to not be protected.
Tomorrow we are HOPEFULLY going to stop by Jake’s grandparents anniversary dinner and visit for a few and then head to our Link Group BBQ. They happen to be within a half hour of eachother and we’ve been planning the BBQ for over a week and we didn’t find out about the anniversary dinner until YESTERDAY! Sooo… let’s hope the boys’ nap times don’t run over or we will have to skip that altogether. I hate last minute notices. Throws the whole day off.
Other than that we NEED to find some time to squeek in some yard cleanup. I have got to get down to business this week for the baby shower. I still have a ton to do. TAMMY:IF YOU’RE READING THIS….ARE YOU AND KASS COMING?? Anyway, that is all we have planned for our “exciting” weekend. πŸ˜› Not much. Now I need to go put away about 5 loads of folded laundry. blech.

Saturday Shmaturday

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So for the last two days I have been on the prowl for a cute outfit to wear to my friend Tara’s wedding. Having just had a baby two weeks ago, this is no small feat. Yes yes, I waited too long and at the last minute panicked and spent four hours at the mall yesterday (where I found an outfit and bought it but then decided I didn’t want to wear it to the wedding) and countless hours here at home going through outfits, mixing and matching, even trying a few of my moms cute outfits. So here was my problem… SHOES. I could find what I wanted to wear but didn’t have the shoes to match. I didn’t buy any CUTE shoes while PG b/c I couldn’t wear heels….hurt my back. Well now I can wear heels again so yesterday I bought two new pairs. You’d think that ONE of those pairs would have been good enough…..nope. I had to go BACK to the mall today and get the black pair I had been eyeing yesterday. I went, I got. On my way out I went through Macy’s and OF COURSE had to browse through the clothes there. I found two new shirts on clearance and grabbed those. I made it home and wasn’t even gone an hour. That is some power shopping!
I get home and pair the shoes with a few outfits and pick one I am COMFORTABLE in and that doesn’t show the post baby belly. I hate that belly. Anyway, after all that, this was the ONLY picture I got of me and Tara tonight. LOL I didn’t even think to get one of me and Jake, and we were looking pretty cute! Owen went with us considering he’s attached at the boob. He looked pretty cute too. πŸ˜€

I am so happy for Tara and she was just the most beautiful bride ever. What is it about weddings that make you cry? As soon as I saw her come through the doors and outside (outdoor wedding) I instantly started crying. I am just so happy for her. She deserves this so much. πŸ™‚


Tomorrow we are going to attempt church for the first time in 3 weeks. We didn’t go the Sunday before I had Owen and we haven’t gone since he was born either. I’m in need of church! I’m excited that Owen did well in his baby sling tonight so hopefully he will be okay during church in it tomorrow.
We have our link group tomorrow night as well. Days with link group are always busy and rushed. I feel stressed out about naps on those days. Sometimes we end up not taking the boys b/c they aren’t up in time…. but I don’t think that will be an option tomorrow. We’ll just have to skip the after church lunch at Abbey’s and come straight home for a quick lunch and then straight down for naps…… I hope I can pull it off. There is NO WAY we are doing no naps tomorrow. Whenever they don’t nap they turn into terrors at EXACTLY 6 o’clock. EXACTLY.
I was wanting to get some cleaning done this weekend but that obviously isn’t happening either. Shoe shopping was a bigger priority today! HA! I have no energy to clean at night either. I used to count on that after the kids went to bed, but MAN this nursing every two hours at night is kicking my butt. I am drained.

Speaking of drained….I am babbling now…. I need to go to bed. I am beat.