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Hi. I’m Brandy and I’m a song pusher. ;o)

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Yeeeaaaahhhh….. (she says nervously)…….

I just finished sending yet another email with a song in it to someone that it put on my heart. I do this a lot. Songs make me think of people, and I inevitably send them that song. Always. Why do I do this? Same reason some people say they’ll pray for you. Same reason some people ask to bring you food. Same reason some people mow your lawn or check your mail or bring in your newspaper. It’s just their way of showing they care and doing something they can do, something they know how to do.

Music is the cry of my heart. Always has been. I sometimes wonder why God gave me such a love of music, with no musical capabilities. I’m just a serious admirer. 😉 I know what I like, I know what I don’t, and it ends there. haha! And when I love something a song, I wear it out from listening to it nonstop. But then there are those favorites that never get old…..

Selah: Standing On The Promises LOVE LOVE LOVE this one! If a song can make me move without meaning to, it’s this one! I might clap too, and my children might look at me like I’m nuts. But whatever. I love it.

Addison Road: What Do I Know of Holy I can’t even explain the draw I have to this song. At all. What I do know is that when I need to talk to God but can’t find the words, just know my heart is aching for it….this song connects me quickly, straight from my heart. In some ways it feels like an apology, in others it feels like the greatest of praises to Him. It’s the inbetween I often feel that paralyzes me…. but this song always seems to break through that.

Fee. ANYTHING by Fee I love. I can’t pick just one, but for the purposes of this I’m gonna have to. 😉 Promised Land is one song that the first time I heard it I thought “this is so weird” but it didn’t take long for me to fall in love with it! But seriously, if you type FEE in at youtube and listen to them, I love it all.

Interesting thing about this group…. over the summer I had heard that they split up because of an affair between a band member and another band members wife….. and I instantly thought “dang it! I hate when that happens b/c it ruins the credibility of their music!” but really…. it doesn’t. I was talking to Jake about this the other night and I said that it really reminds me of King David. At times he did some pretty shady things (hello Bathsheba and Uriah, among many others!) but he was still highly favored by God because his heart was in right standing with God…. even though he stumbled….a LOT. Do the Psalms have less credibility because of David’s downfalls? No. Do the lyrics in Christian music have less credibility because the person who wrote them or sings them has personal downfalls that in this day and age are made so public? No. That’s the same opinion I have on Jennifer Knapp revealing she’s a lesbian as well. I know some people wanted to throw her and her music out the window as well. A good reminder for all of us…. God can use anyone at any stage of their life for His glory, even us…. even if we’re not rockin awesome musicians who sing amazingly. 😉 I don’t know where that soapbox moment came from but I’m coming down now to get on with my agenda….. of sharing good music. 😉 And P.S. That Jennifer Knapp link I included…. that’s a song I sing to the boys at night before bed sometimes. It’s my favorite of anything she’s done.


Needtobreathe. Can we just have a collective *sigh* here? I could listen to them I wouldn’t even care to know what they looked like, their voices are mesmerizing, and I’m sucked in everytime! Jake and I saw them in concert (HERE IN MINOT NO LESS!) and I was in giddy heaven. heehee I love to watch them sing too…. when someone sings with passion that comes through their face, I love it. Here’s a clip of them on Air1 for your viewing and listening pleasure. ha! The song “Garden” that they sing in that clip have lyrics that are more like a prayer, and I find myself just listening, not singing along, and feeling a quiet communion with God. And their more well known songs I love are Signature of Divine (Yahweh) and Washed By The Water.

Funny story about when we went to go see them in concert. As we pulled into the parking lot I saw van with some guys getting out. Now, I had only seen like ONE of their music videos, so I wasn’t positive of what they looked like, but these guys getting out of that van were looking a whole lot like them. I am in a PANIC for Jake to park so I can attack them get a picture with them and talk to them. So I quickly grab my camera and practically jump out of the truck before Jake is fully parked. I LEAVE MY HUSBAND BEHIND PEOPLE! I left him and hauled booty across the parking lot, and then chicken out, so I nonchalantly keep walking as I’m STARING at them. Their lead singer wasn’t there, that’s what threw me off. So one of the guys (the drummer I later figure out) sees me acting all weird, so I say “hey, uh, hi, uh are you guys playing tonight?” and he looks at me like I’m speshul and just nods a yes, to which I say “uh, cool, uh, haha, okay” and keep walking. As soon as possible I duck behind a row of cars and RUN back to the truck. I’m crazy you guys. CRAZY. Jake laughs at me. We go inside. I’m twitterpated through the entire concert. There’s an annoucement that if you pre-buy their next cd you get to meet and greet with pictures and autographs and all that. I look at Jake and say “yeah, we’re TOTALLY doing that!” Fast forward to meet and greet time…. I tell them the whole stupid story about me in the parking lot because I can’t stop talking because I’m so twitterpated that I’m standing there in front of them talking to them. I was so giddy in line that a woman asked me if I was a groupie. Um, no, thank you. I’m a MOM. Geesh. haha, a groupie. Anyway, I am aware that Jake is with me but I totally don’t care and he is laughing at me through the entire thing. End of embarrassing but seriously hilarious story. And I have a picture to go with it. VIOLA!


Okay so I think I’ll end Chapter 1 of My Favorite Music here. haha! I didn’t intend on there being chapters. Just so ya know. 😉


Lists and Such

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Apparently I like lists and laid out plans. 😐

This goes against my rebellious nature to do what I want without something or someone telling me what to do when. I know this about myself, yet I still fight it.

Today I gave in. Today I laid out 3 months of plans for every M-F of the week. For 3 months. You can ask me what I’m doing on any given M-F between now and the end of December and I could tell you.

Concerning homeschooling that is.

I had really hoped I’d be able to be that homeschooling parent that sort of threw caution to the wind and came up with something educational everyday, taking every experience as it came, gleaning all the knowledge from it that we could…. and enjoying it every step of the way being confident that my children wouldn’t end up completely deficient.

Well, clearly that’s not me.

I like to know a plan. I like to compare what I’m doing to said plan. I like to have an outline, and things laid out for me, telling me what to do. I can rise to that, I just can’t create the plan on my own.

Christian Cottage did it for me. Hee Heeeeeeeee. (that makes me happy!)

The curriculum came….last week sometime I think??? And just today I sat down to look at it. Oh yeah. I was putting it off. It felt daunting. Up until now we’ve been doing that whole scenario I described above…. with some math workbooks incorporated and some other good books I had ordered that came in. More along the lines of bible history at a kids level. Very excited about those. Although one child seems quite fascinated with King Herod and I’m not quite sure what to think about that. 😕

Anyway, I decided to transfer the plans from the binder onto my honkin wall calendar so I know what is ahead of me. It feels GOOOOOOD to know I can see it all in front of me. And to have a list of books I need for this particular month all laid out as well…so I can just go to the library, grab those books, and know I have all the reading material for the month. I love that for the experiments and crafts and things, there is also a list of supplies for me already done.

Clearly, I am a lover of the lists.

Who knew?!

So, starting next Monday, the 11th, we start our first month of study…Roots and Relations. Looks to be a lot of fun!

Hopefully I’ll keep y’all posted through here. 😉

Some homeschool friends have told me that the first year will mostly be trial and error, figuring out what works for us as a family.

They weren’t kidding!

Prevent the Broken and Hurting

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I’ve never been able to listen to this song without tears in my eyes. Ever.

Even if I just catch it on the radio or hear it on the computer….. I always well up.

If every little girl was told that there could never be a more beautiful her by a man who loved her and cared for her and protected her… I think we’d have less broken and hurting little girls in the minds of grown women.

Moms can’t do it.

Friends can’t do it.

Siblings can’t do it.

There is something about the way we are made that has us always wanting and craving that fatherly figure to adore us…. and when we don’t get enough of it we end up Broken and Hurting.

I sometimes wonder why it took me so long to realize that even though that physical adoring father was never there, I’ve always had a heavenly adoring Father.

There is not a single line in this song that doesn’t resonate deep within me.

If only every man who had a daughter or a niece or a sister or a cousin or a granddaughter…. knew and understood this.

If every husband would speak these words into his wife regardless of what her fatherly situation is or was…. he could be the vessel that God uses to love her through.

Little girl fourteen flipping through a magazine
Says she wants to look that way
But her hair isn’t straight, her body isn’t fake
And she’s always felt overweight

Well, little girl fourteen I wish that you could see
That beauty is within your heart
And you were made with such care, your skin, your body and your hair
Are perfect just the way they are

There could never be a more beautiful you
Don’t buy the lies, disguises and hoops, they make you jump through
You were made to fill a purpose that only you could do
So there could never be a more beautiful you

Little girl twenty one the things that you’ve already done
Anything to get ahead
And you say you’ve got a man but He’s got another plan
Only wants what you will do instead

Well, little girl twenty one you never thought that this would come
You starve yourself to play the part
But I can promise you there’s a man whose love is true
And He’ll treat you like the jewel you are

There could never be a more beautiful you
Don’t buy the lies, disguises and hoops, they make you jump through
You were made to fill a purpose that only you could do
So there could never be a more beautiful you, more beautiful you

So turn around you’re not too far
To back away be who you are
To change your path go another way
It’s not too late, you can be saved
If you feel depressed with past regrets
The shameful nights hope to forget
Can disappear, they can all be washed away

By the one who’s strong, can right your wrongs
Can rid your fears dry, all your tears
And change the way you look at this big world
He will take your dark distorted view
And with His light, He will show you truth
And again you’ll see through the eyes of a little girl

That there could never be a more beautiful you
Don’t buy the lies, disguises and hoops, they make you jump through
You were made to fill a purpose that only you could do
So there could never be a more beautiful you
There could never be a more beautiful you