Okay so I’m only one entire week into it and I already have a confession. Well I have several but I’m only telling one today. 😉
I knew when I decided to homeschool that I was giving up a LOT of potential free time. I knew I’d never have quiet times that lasted for more than 5 minutes. I knew I’d continue to struggle with keeping up on housework. Seriously people, I HATE housework. Hate it. BUT, I love it when I can do it unbothered and have it be perfected in one day and stay that way. Not gonna happen with three boys home all day everyday. It’s just not. And to be honest it never has happened. 😆
There were days though before I knew I’d homeschool during a time when I have up the hope of homeschooling when I’d sit and think “oh I can’t wait until they’re all out of the house ALL DAY LONG.”
There is a part of me that envies that free time. I realized the other day that I could have all three boys in school of some sort all day long right now if I wanted to. I could have SO MUCH FREE TIME to do whatever I wanted. I wouldn’t be overwhelmed with some of the things I’m overwhelmed with. My house would be clean….maybe. Well, it would be cleanER. Laundry would be done. My grocery shopping would be done without having to find a sitter or waiting until Jake comes home. Seriously, I am NOT taking all three with me. I’m not. I can’t. I would go insane. I know some do, but I refuse. That is one thing I refuse to do….take them all with me for the BIG grocery shopping. Little runs here and there, fine. The BIG shop, never. 😆 I’m not that resilient.
So, that is my confession. I sorta kinda sometimes wish I had all this free time.
Even still, I’m so happy to watch and witness all that I get to everyday. And this challenges me more than anything else would…. and I honestly believe it will shape me into what God has planned for me. I’m capable of so much more than I do, and I know that, and this challenges me to rise to that.