On a good day, I’m the annoying chick in the middle.
On a normal day, I’m the one on the right. Most days I’m a “glass half full” kinda girl.
Today, I’m the downer on the left thinking about all things negative and wondering when my glass will get tipped over. 😕
My biopsy results came back as abnormal. Now I am referred to a dermatologist who will finish cutting out the two moles making sure to get all the edges because the edges “don’t look good.” While there I intend on having her check out the rest of my spot covered body.
My mind has bounced back and forth between “the morons at the base clinic don’t know how to read a biopsy so they are making me go elsewhere” and “they are cancerous and don’t want to be the ones to tell me so they’re sending me elsewhere.”
Both I know are extremes, but when a nurse tells you that she can’t tell you either way and that you need to see a specialist to have them look again…. you worry a bit. That, and my albino white skin doesn’t give me much hope. 😉
So, today, I’m a glass half empty girl.
Tonight though I pray that I wake up with my cup overflowing again in the morning.
I know that I have not been given anything concrete to worry about.
I know that I will see a doctor sooner rather than later.
I know that I have faithful friends who pray daily, even when I don’t ask them too.
I have friends I know I can email and they will pray that moment.
I know that if I let Him, God will give me the peace that surpasses my understanding…. surpasses my lack of knowledge at this given moment.
All those things remind me that my cup is indeed, half full.