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I can’t believe I’m posting this….

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….but the boys and I made a “ROUGH” video to test out. It is a new way for the Grandparents to see and hear the boys. πŸ˜‰ Give it a looksee….but please look over the fact that Dylan is picking his nose and I have a double chin. K? THANKS! πŸ˜†


Drama Queen at your service!

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So, once again, we all know I love me an apron right?! πŸ˜†

My Dear Mom has called me “DQ” for so long I can’t remember her NOT calling me DQ. Short for Drama Queen obviously. πŸ˜‰ She has passed this on to Dylan, at times calling him a DK, Drama King. πŸ˜†

I was THRILLED when I opened up one of the presents from her. Seriously folks, aprons make me happy!



I will wear it with pride! πŸ˜†

Christmas Eve Craziness!!!

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Here are a few pics from tonight! More to come tomorrow! Merry Christmas!











I love me an apron! Especially this one!

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Here’sΒ a pic of me wearing the awesome apron from Dear Sweet Alece. I absolutely LOVE it! Right after this picture was taken I quick made some meat muffins for the fam and then headed out to a Mom’s Christmas party. πŸ˜† Aprons make me happy. πŸ˜€ heeheeΒ  (pictures courtesy of Dylan)



Well hello there strangers…

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Okay that was cheesy. But I feel like it’s been a while since I did an ACTUAL blog post. Like, really put EFFORT into a post. Well folks, tonights the night! πŸ˜†

I’ve been writing in a notebook at night before I go to bed because I have OCMTOD. Obsessive Compulsive Morbid Thoughts Of Dying. Yes you read that correctly. Anyway, always at night I lay in bed and have all these thoughts I want to get out and things and feelings that I want to make sure get HEARD…..and what if I don’t wake up in the morning?! Seriously people, this is how my mind works. Even on medication. πŸ˜† What really started this was a bad day with the boys….that night I laid in bed thinking about how MUCH I love them and then tons of feelings and memories of them just floaded my mind. I thought “wow, today was REALLY bad. I wish they went to bed knowing what I am thinking RIGHT NOW instead of what I was yelling before.” So I decided to start writing these things down at night…. some of my more personal thoughts. Things I wouldn’t typically blog about because these kind of “thinking binges” only come when I am in bed at night. So, I’m going to post them every so often because it’s a bit deeper than my normal posts….and I like deep posts. πŸ˜‰ I would like to write *type* deeper posts.


Today I wrote a blog post on what I am thankful for titled “A Christmas Miracle” Today I felt great joy with my life and surroundings. Despite the freezing cold NEGATIVE temps and the cancellation of something we were looking forward to, I have peace and joy. I am happy. I am in love with my family, no matter how challenging they may be at times, I am so in love with them my heart swells.


Thankful for the ease with which I have been blessed by God. I know that I am extremely blessed and the biggest blessings have come to meΒ fairly easily. So much so that I find myself sometimes wondering if the “shoe will drop.” I know I can’t live in fear like that. That it is just Satan trying to steal my joy and my blessings. I also often wonder “why me” and “why not so & so?”Β  I have two people that I love very much and they are hurting a lot. I just don’t understand God’s plan sometimes. I find myself thinking “it may be good for me now, but my time will come where I will be mad at God and question Him.” Those thoughts scare me. There are some things I will never understand this side of heaven. I am reminded though that even still, God is to be praised….as hard as that is. I understand how that could be so hard to do. Yet even so, we are to do it. Please God, help us understand. Amen.


  • I am so excited for the days ahead!
  • I feel such a relief that Jake is off for the next 9 days!!!
  • My heart was both saddened and blessed tonight for two reasons. One being that I received a WONDERFUL present from my dear sweet friend Alece…an APRON from her trip to Italy. And we all know how much I love aprons! πŸ˜‰ That of course was the blessing. The sad thing tonight was the news about Caylee Anthony’s remains being identified. That shook me to the core. My heart was so heavy and hurting. I was so sick at my stomach. It was awful. 😦 😦 😦
  • I love having my husband around. He makes me laugh and he is comforting.
  • I miss my mom and granny A LOT.
  • My sister has been on my mind and heart a lot lately. I should call her but I’m nervous and a little scared. 😦
  • I miss my nieces terribly. I was talking to Jake about them tonight and I started to choke up. I stopped myself from talking before I started to cry. Just can’t go there.
  • Out of all the boys, Aidan affects my heart the most right now. He seems very upset and angry and that hurts my heart. he is stubborn and passionate. I worry about him. I just want to hold him and tell him he is loved but he does not want affection right now. He gets VERY upset when you try to hug him or kiss him or when you tell him you love him. 😦 Makes me sad.
  • Every night as I lay here, I feel OVERWHELMING love for my boys and for Jake. So much. And I know God could take it all from me at any given moment. *sigh* I am realizing that all too much lately.

’tis the season!

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’tis the season to watch these two movies over and over and over and over again!!!!! πŸ˜†

Mary, did you know?

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This is my favorite Christmas song…. actually it’s probably one of my all time favorite songs. Listen to the words. Read the words. Think on them. Pray on them. I’m amazed everytime.

Mary, did you know
that your Baby Boy would one day walk on water?
Mary, did you know
that your Baby Boy would save our sons and daughters?
Did you know
that your Baby Boy has come to make you new?
This Child that you delivered will soon deliver you.

Mary, did you know
that your Baby Boy will give sight to a blind man?
Mary, did you know
that your Baby Boy will calm the storm with His hand?
Did you know
that your Baby Boy has walked where angels trod?
When you kiss your little Baby you kissed the face of God?

Mary did you know.. Ooo Ooo Ooo

The blind will see.
The deaf will hear.
The dead will live again.
The lame will leap.
The dumb will speak
The praises of The Lamb.

Mary, did you know
that your Baby Boy is Lord of all creation?
Mary, did you know
that your Baby Boy would one day rule the nations?
Did you know
that your Baby Boy is heaven’s perfect Lamb?
The sleeping Child you’re holding is the Great, I Am.