I was just laying on the couch, nursing Owen, and talking to my mom on the phone. Peanut was playing with my feet and the older two boys were (still are!) outside. After I hung up with my mom I just layed there staring at Owen’s precious face thinking “I don’t want to get up. I don’t want to clean or do any laundry or make lunch or anything else other than lay here and look at him and talk to him.” I started thinking about what my day would be like if I had a maid and a cook. I’d be able to do what I REALLY want to do all day without feeling the guilt that comes along with either ignoring the dishes or shuffling my kids out of the way. Because either way, I feel guilt. I can’t be all things all the time. I got frustrated with the boys this morning b/c they kept coming in the house after I spent half an hour bundling them to play outside. Then I looked at the kitchen and said “forget it” and called my best friend and then my mom. I enjoy talking to them much more than doing dishes. For a few minutes I forgot about the dishes and the laundry and smiled thinking about how much I would LOVE my days if all of this other stuff, other responsibilities, didn’t get in the way of what I REALLY want to be doing. I’d rather play with the boys instead of feeling the internal stress of knowing there are chores to be done. Chores I hate doing. When I am doing those things I hate feeling that nagging that I am missing moments where they want my attention.
My ideal day would be a day where someone ELSE takes care of all the responsibilities and I just get to be with the boys, guilt free, and without a mess at the end of the day.
What is your ideal day? Details please. 😉