I’m a bit late on this I know. And I know I missed Wordless Wednesday. I have a lot going on okay?! 😉 heehee
Right now I am having a hard time finding something to be thankful for as I am kind of in the middle of some personal stuff. I need to be careful to not get caught up in being fake right now, b/c I tend to do that when I have an overload of stress. I don’t want people knowing what is going on with me b/c I just don’t want to say it outloud (that makes it real y/k? 😉 ), but I also need to be able to say “I’m not okay right now and that’s okay.” So, I’m not okay right now. Deal with it. 😆 I could have confided in B and T this morning when I took them the most AMAZING COFFEE DRINK ever to grace my tastebuds, but I didn’t. I wanted to, but I didn’t. It was too hard.
Anyway, I am starting to wander and I don’t want to wander. I just want to find something to be thankful for today.
Today I am thankful for my God. I am thankful that he never lets me down. That he loves like I am. That I am good enough for him. That I don’t have to be perfect for him. I am thankful God knows my name, my heart, my thoughts, my pains, my troubles, my everything. He knows more about me than I know. He knows what I need, what I don’t need, and everything in between. He knows how to help me, comfort me, counsel me, talk to me. He knows how to speak to my heart. He knows what troubles me when I don’t want to say it outloud. I can just cry and say “OH GOD” and he is with me in an instant. He is always with me, whether I acknowledge it or not.
Today, and everyday, I am thankful for my God. Without whom I would be lost.
I just took a deep cleansing breath. The kind you take when someone hugs you tight. God said “it’s okay, I am here” and I heard him.