Hmmm, so I have been LAAAAAAAAME lately and haven’t been able to find the time to blog. It seems like once we get the boys in bed I have to feed Owen shortly after that and then I have to get him settled into bed and by then I just want to SIT and not worry about a kid for a while, and then before I know it, it’s midnight and I am tired and wanting to go to bed, but it’s time to feed Owen again by then.
I feel so overwhelmed lately. I feel like my “duties” around here have multiplied and I have NO time to do them all. On top of that Jake and I are doing some counseling “maintenance” so some issues have come up there that I am trying to work on for the benefit of our marriage and I feel stressed out b/c I can’t possibly keep up. I fail somewhere. I feel like there just isn’t enough time in the day to do everything required of me. It’s times like these when I sort of “check out” and don’t do anything, but I’ve learned that that just makes me feel worse. Soooo, I have been trying to maintain some sort of order around here, but I have yet to get a schedule going for the fam. While I have been able to KIND OF keep up, I haven’t been able to work on other things that need attention. I just feel like I am falling behind.
I know that once we get more settled with Owen and once he starts sleeping more I will feel more like myself again. I mean, I feel fine now, I just have NO energy and NO drive. To top it off, Owen has decided to start FUSSING constantly. This after I raved about how good he was and how he never cried for no reason. I should have just kept my mouth shut. Or knocked on wood, or something. LOL
We should be finding out where we are going sometime in the next two weeks. Jake says he should have his orders by then. I feel like a lot hinges on that for us. Not sure why, but I do. I just want to move forward and be able to PLAN and I can’t until I know where and when we are moving. Right now it’s probably the biggest thing we talk about…. moving, what we will take, what we will sell, when we will clean out the garage and have a yard sale, whether we want mom to go with us to help or not, what time of year we will move (b/c we MAY have some say in that due to a few details…), leaving the trailer until next summer, all that kind of stuff. It’s nice to plan but stressfull when you can’t OFFICIALLY plan anything……. it’ll be nice to know, no matter where it is.
Dylan has been getting more and more difficult. I blame myself for it b/c at one point a while ago I went through this thing with him where I wanted him to learn to tell us how he felt instead of acting out…and now it’s backfired in a BAD way. “I mad at YOU!!!” “I don’t want you to talk to me!” “I just have a bad day, I don’t want to!” When we tell him “no” or that he can’t do something he says “Yes, I just want to do that!” I swear I have created a monster. Now I am trying to do damage control and break him of all of that. He is getting mouthy.
Aidan keeps putting food up his nose too!! What is WITH this kid?! Tonight Kim brought us a yummy chicken fajita dish for dinner and I cut up the chicken for the boys and Aidan shoved chicken up his nose! I saw him start to and I said “AIDAN NO!” and he he crammed it up there as fast as he could. I thought “no freaking way are we taking him to the ER again for food up his nose” so I went and got the tweezers. I put him in a headlock and tried to grab the chicken. Well whatever I did tickled his nose and he coughed/sneezed at the same time and it FLEW out of his nose thank goodness. I don’t know what I am going to do about him and the food up his nose. ?????
Tomorrow I am taking Owen to my lactation consultant so she can see how much he is getting at a time. She weighs him before he eats and then weighs him after and can see how much he got. He just isn’t eating in a way that I am comfortable with. He will eat for like 5 minutes and then fall asleep or spit it (me) out and not eat anymore. Sometimes he’ll eat a bit more on the other side, but not really. He keeps falling asleep and if he doesn’t fall asleep he just spits it out and decides to not eat anymore. I don’t get it. He can’t POSSIBLY be that good of an eater at 3 weeks. I just want peace of mind that he is getting enough to eat. I mean, he is obviously gaining weight, he’s grown out of an outfit already and he pees and poops normally, but I just can’t imagine that he is getting enough in five minutes. So, I hope that tomorrow I will feel better about he is eating.
Not much else going on so far this week…. I think we want to try to clean out the garage this weekend. I need to talk to mom and see if she would be willing to take the boys on Saturday for a bit so we can get the bulk of it done then without having to worry about them as distractions. That way we can get it done in one day. I love cleaning out the garage actually. I hate a messy garage and right now ours is AWFUL. You can barely walk around in it.
OHHHH, something funny I can’t believe I forgot. Now it is too late to give the horrific details but basically I FELL on my hands and knees in church on Sunday while everyone was sitting down. I was walking down the isle to our seat up front and I had Owen in the baby sling and when I got to the very front I FELL and let out this LOUD yelp. I don’t know how I fell or why but I did, and oh my word was it embarrassing. It was embarrassing and funny. I can’t believe I ate it in front of the entire church WHILE Tom was up talking and introducing someone. Why couldn’t I have fallen when everyone was standing up singing??? Good grief…. really it is quite commical, but at the same time, still embarrassing. Anyway, that was the most excitement this week.
We’re boring. LOL