Organized Chaos

It’s no secret to anyone who knows me that I am NOT a neat person. I may have some OCD tendencies, but NONE of them are pertaining to keeping things in order or super clean. You’d think I liked things this way. I don’t. I hate it actually, but something in me rebels against it. And I can totally live in a chaotic environment. It doesn’t make me super happy, but it doesn’t bug me either. The only reason I hate it is because I know it bothers OTHER people. Like my husband. And really, there are days I think “seriously? you call yourself a housewife and stay at home mom?! get it together!!” It’s just something I wish I was good at.

Another thing will not be a surprise to anyone who knows me is that I am a very black and white person. I’ve gotten a lot of crap over this from people, but really, I’m done apologizing for it. It’s just how I am. Deal with it or go away. Anyway, part of the reason I’m not a more organized person is this whole black/white issue. If it can’t STAY perfect, I don’t want to do it. And that is why I don’t. Seriously. ALSO, I have a hard time focusing. I swear I have ADHD. I don’t multi-task unless it is talking on the phone while eating ice cream and watching t.v. HAHA! Seriously. Annoys the crap out of Jake. heehee

I’ve been noticing the last few months that in order for me to really FOCUS on something, I need to eliminate other things that easily consume me. Like talking on the phone, the tv, or my computer. I will frequently not answer my phone until I know who it is…..which means LEAVE A MESSAGE. And I might not call back right away if I’m focused on something else. There are days we leave the tv off completely because it’s so distracting for me and the boys. Yes those days are usually LOUD days but I’d rather them be playing loudly than sitting like lumps on logs in front of the tv. Then there are times when I need to turn off my computer so I can focus on other things….. like my house. I find that I take better care of stuff around here when I’m not plugged in. I need to schedule this time in, or else I won’t do it. And remember, I’m totally black and white so I can’t easily find a middle ground. I’m not wired for it. Or trained for it. Whatever. It’s just not something I am able to do at this point.

So, this week is my scheduled time off. Wish me luck. I’ll be back Friday or Saturday. Or Sunday. Whatever.

Eventful Weekend….for us. ;-)

Friday night Jake and I did get to go on our date. We ate at the bowling alley due to time limits. Lucky the food there is just as good! Plus we like the guy who works there. He is always so nice and chatty. After we ate we went across the street to the theater for Benjamin Button. OH MY WORD that movie is good. So good. And so long. Didn’t realize it was a 3 hour long movie! When we left the theater I said to Jake “that was an AWFUL HORRIBLE MOVIE! Just horrible!” meaning “it was brutally awesome.” He said “yeah, that was not good at the end.” The movie kind of left us in a quiet state on the way home. It was THAT good. At one point I said to Jake “I can’t believe how worked up I got over such a horrible TRUE story!” and he looked at me like I was crazy. Clearly I was poking fun at myself because it’s NOT a true story but it was one of those that leaves a mark on you as if it was.

After we got home I took Marlee to the store with me and bought her a soda and a candy bar and then paid her. I also picked up a movie for me and Jake to watch and some champagne.  For my bellini mix you know. I took Marlee home and went in and visited with her mom for a bit. We really should hang out with them more often. When I got home we watched the movie I had picked up….Fireproof. Another amazing movie. Yes a bit cheesey in the acting department at times, but the message of the movie overpowered that 100x over for me. I told Jake that I got more out of the movie on a personal level than I did on a marriage level. Yes it was a good marriage movie, but there were some key moments where I was like “nice God, real nice, I KNOW okay?!” When it was over Jake said “I think I should probably be doing that stuff too” meaning the “Love Dare” that they husband does in the movie. I’m glad Jake pointed that out himself.

Saturday we slept in LATE. I’m not even going to say how late b/c it is THAT embarrassing. I did however get up when the boys (Dylan and Aidan) did and made them breakfast. After that they played and colored so nicely on their own and let us sleep. I felt guilty when I got up though. Whenever I sleep longer than they do on the weekends I have that twinge of Mom Guilt, but I need to remember this is our new normal. We don’t have the reprieve of my mom anymore to keep them overnight or take them in the morning like we did before. And with Jake working nights we can’t switch off like we were before either. Luckily Owen sleeps in late or else there would be NO sleeping in. I think D and A would eat him alive if that happened.

After I got up and around I decided that I didn’t want to sit home all day so I got myself and the boys ready to go into town to eat. Jake finally decided to get up and go with us so we just went to the BX first to eat and shop for a few things we needed. Then we came home to check something and decided to stay because they were all HORRIBLE. Dylan completely defied me in the bathroom at the BX by REFUSING to wash his hands. I mean outright refusing. I finally managed to fenagle his hands under the faucet and get them washed (he is SO STRONG!) and then I gave him the paper towels to dry with and THREW THEM ON THE FLOOR. That was another battle I’d rather have not fought. Needless to say I won, but dang it was frutrating. By that point I was done and wanted to go home. After we ate we went and shopped around and then it was Aidan’s turn. He screamed his head off the whole time in the store and sounded like a dang newborn baby. Owen fussed a bit too. I should be glad that really only one at a time would act up, but dang, it was so hard. When we went out to the truck Owen decided to give his lungs some exercise and started screaming as well. By the time we got home we were SO disappointed in them that we decided to stay home. Well, the boys and I did. Jake was supposed to maybe be meeting people in town to eat so he went ahead and did that and brought food back for me later.

Today the boys and I tried out a new church. www.theriverlife.com I was VERY impressed and very happy with it. It was a bit creepy too b/c the pastor there looks EXACTLY like our pastor at home. EXACTLY. Has the same body frame, same mannerisms, teaches similar. It was so bizzare. I will say that this church is a bit more charismatic than we are used to, but I will take it over some of the more rigid ones we’ve been too. It’s Assembly of God which is pentacostal which I did not know. I didn’t know that before going, and I am glad I didn’t. I might have tried it. I absolutely loved it. By the end of the service I was in tears because I was so happy to have found a church that just clicked. I also had to DRAG the boys out of their classrooms. They were having so much fun and didn’t want to leave. I was so happy about that. Oh, also, there is a coffee bar at the church. I won’t lie…… I was sold right then.   HAHAHA!!!! After church I took the boys to Buffalo Wild Wings to eat. It’s a sports bar/restaurant. They had been asking for a WEEK to go there so I figured today was as good a day as any. It was bit challenging taking all three of them by myself into a restaurant. Bathroom trips were tricky. I am glad I did it though b/c now I know I can do it again.

I know for certain that the boys and I will keep going back. I’m not sure if Jake will ever go with us b/c of this schedule he is on. And I can’t swear that when he finds out it’s pentacostal and slightly charismatic that he will want to keep going either. Something I need to pray about for sure. All I know is, I felt so comfortable there and such a peace. It was so nice to be around people who were EXCITED to be Christians, EXCITED to be at church, EXCITED to worship. And not one of them afraid of how they looked worshipping. It was nice.

If you read this tonight, pray for Jake. He has a certification tonight that he needs to pass for his job. It starts at 3am.

Tomorrow Peanut has an appointment to get his hair cut at 10am. I hope Jake is home in time for that! While that is going on I am going to hang out in town and go to WalMart to pick up some stuff and then maybe go to the mall just to walk around and be out of the house.

I’ve got a hot date!

Jake and I are going out for dinner and movie tonight and we don’t even have to leave base! WOOHOO! Besides, if we did leave base I’m pretty sure we’d get stranded in town thankyouverymuchsnowyroads. Woke up to snow falling this morning and it was obvious it snowed most of last night. The wind today isn’t kind either.

We have Marlee (14) coming over at 5:30 (well, I am picking her up) and then Jake and I are heading to JR Rockers (restaurant/bar) on base for dinner and a drink. Then we’re going to the base theater to see Benjamin Button. Kind of excited to see it. Jake wants to eat at the bowling alley but NO SIR I want a drink with my dinner thank you. I’m just hoping and praying the boys are good for her tonight. So far I have not put them down for a nap at all. I had intended on putting them down for late naps so they would be fine for her tonight….. so far only Owen is down. Dylan and Aidan are ACTUALLY (knock on wood) playing very nicely and I see no reason to put them down. I just hope the rest of the night goes okay. I’m sure it will. Kids are always better for someone else.

The boys and I made a video earlier of them dancing to Natasha Bedingfield. I swear they like her music as much as I do! At first a window popped up saying it couldn’t detect sound and to change my settings…..so I did. We started over and the window didn’t pop up again so I assumed it was fixed. 8 minutes later we are watching the VERY CUTE AND FUNNY video of all three of them dancing their hearts out and……NO SOUND!!!! I was so upset. It’s still cute and I still might post it for the grandparents….but dang it is so funny if only you could hear them. Bummer. I need to fix it for next time.

Pirate Bones

When I’m in need of a boost to make me get up and move, music is always my cure. Today, Natasha Bedingfield is kicking my butt into gear.

Preach It!!

 

 

 

Saw this article on another blog tonight, Suburban Turmoil I think it was? Anyway, HILARIOUS!! I about busted a gut laughing at it! And the “snit” at the end I read as “shit” which is even better that way. hahaha!!

GOOD GRIEF!!

Today we had some pretty nice weather outside….. the sun was gorgeous! No wind! I decided to get me and the boys bundled and borrow my friends wagon. I pulled the boys around the block….took all of 15 minutes but DANG were we frozen when we got back. Even still, they wanted to play in the backyard ON the snow. Standing on top of it they were taller than our swingset!   I laid Owen down for a nap and then got Dylan and Aidan loaded into the truck to get some hot chocolate at the coffee shop.

It was 3pm. Coffee shop was closed! Dang! So, I dropped the boys back at home (by the way, Jake was home sleeping this whole time) and went to the shoppette to get some there. Swung by and paid the babysitter for Friday night on my way home. Came in, gave the boys their drinks, then told them that since Owen and Daddy were sleeping and they were quietly watching cartoons I was going to run to the grocery store QUICKLY. They were to sit quietly, sip their drinks, and not make a fuss. “Okay mommy, okay, okay, okay mommy, okay” was what I heard. I made sure they understood, and I was off. I was MAYBE gone for 30 minutes. MAYBE.

When I got home all hell had broke loose. Owen was up. Jake was up. Dylan was sobbing. Aidan was…..Aidan. Wandering around without a clue. Apparently, Owen had been awakened (funny how NO ONE knows how) and was screaming this weird scream he does when he is scared and thinks no one is coming for him. Jake heard him, got up and came downstairs to Dylan to screaming “MOMMY?! MOMMY?! MOMMY?!” and spilled hot chocolate ALL OVER THE COUCH. When Dylan saw Jake he burst into tears because he couldn’t find mommy. Jake of course was mad b/c he thought I left them alone and didn’t tell them where I was going. He even called my friend across the street looking for me. The boys SWORE they had no clue where I was or if/when I had left. Good grief.

Once I got everyone calmed down I explained to Jake what exactly had happened. He went back to bed and the boys went about playing. I asked Dylan if he remembered what we talked about. “Yeah, you were just going to the store really quick.” YES DUDE! I have no idea what was up with him freaking out and saying he didn’t know where I was. Good grief. I called my friend and she gave me the story from her end. Apparently Jake was REALLY mad. haha!!

If you’re wondering if I’ve ever done this before……yes I have. I’ve left them sitting on the couch watching a movie while Owen has been sleeping and Jake IS home (sleeping, but home) while I ran to Burger King, and been gone the same amount of time. I have no idea what went wrong today.   GOOD GRIEF!!

Dirty Duds

My life is glamorous, I just HAVE TO share it with you.

Me: (smelling something in the air) Aidan, did you poop in your diaper?

Aidan: (shaking his head) I don’t want to tell you.

Me: Yeah, you did.

Aidan: I just don’t want to tell you. Ever.

And this is the dance we do every single time there is a diaper to be changed. Which would be AT LEAST three times a day from him. Let’s not talk about Owen.

On the upside to this dirty topic, Dylan can take care of himself in that department now. HALLELUJAH!! Life just got a little easier.

Not much going on here these days. Still …

Not much going on here these days. Still snowing A LOT. Still freezing. Most days you can find us inside with some crazy boys climbing the walls. We have been able to make it out of the house a bit more….trips into town to eat or shop. Thank you tax refund. Speaking of tax refund, we were able to pay off two big bills that have been a thorn in our side for a while now! yeah! That gives us some extra money each month which will be nice. In fact, we are looking at buying my mom’s van from her when we go home in July. It’s paid off for her, so she just wants us to make payments on it….. we would be stupid to not take her up on it! We’ll never get an offer like that again, for sure. We’re excited at the thought of it…having two vehicles will definately open up MY days a bit more with the boys.

I got my hair done last week and I LOVE it. Super short in the back and long in the front. I joked that it was a reverse mullet. HA!! I’m loving it. So cute and trendy.

The boys are “same ‘ol same ‘ol” around here. Aidan has a bit of PTSD from when we all had the stomach flu in December. He carries around a cup ALL THE TIME with him and calls it his “frow up cup.” He sleeps with it, plays with it, takes it with us in the truck….. he cries if he can’t find it. Poor kid. We had him weened from a bucket down to a large cup, then down to a small cup. I was hoping to get rid of the cup here soon but he gagged himself on accident tonight and DID throw up. UGH! Back to square one. One cute thing about him lately is his dancing. That kid can DANCE!! I was worried he’d be the one to have NO rythm at all but lately he’s been a dancing fool. I’ve caught him several times dancing up a storm when he thinks no one is watching. heehee He is just so dang cute it kills me.

Owen is getting the greatest little personality ever. Oh gosh that kid just makes me smile. He is so happy and smiley all the time. It’s awesome. He has three teeth coming in at the same time….two are large back teeth and one is an eye tooth. Canine or whatever. So far he has 6 teeth all the way in. His smile is so big you can see them all. He is a funny little buggar. Nursing is going okay with him. I’ve got him to where I don’t NEED to nurse him before naps or bedtime. Mostly we just nurse in the morning and MAYBE before bed. And if he manages to catch me sitting down he knows how to get what he wants. LOL. I know I know….some of you are cringing. Oh well.

Dylan we are having some problems with lately. This kid will argue until you are blue in the face. It is so frustrating. He has an opinion about EVERYTHING, wants to argue EVERYTHING, knows how to do EVERYTHING better than everyone else, and did I mention he has an opinion about EVERYTHING????? We are at our wits end arguing with him over every little detail. I joke that he is going to be a lawyer when he grows up. He can debate anything. On the positive side though, he is one little cleaning machine. He loves cleaning anything as long as I don’t tell him to clean it. HAHAHA!!! If I tell him to clean it, I can guarantee that it WON’T get cleaned. He cleans what he wants. haha! And he is quite the little conversationalist lately too. I love spending time with him and hearing what he has to say…..when he’s not arguing.

Peanut has become my best little buddy around here with Jake’s wacky schedule. This dog follows me everywhere. EVERYWHERE. He sleeps with me at night, usually at the foot of the bed or RIGHT next to my head. He likes to be touching me somewhere, and if I move, he moves. He waits for me when I take a shower. Follows me to the bathroom. Sits with me on the couch. He NEVER leaves my side. EVER. I swear Jake is jealous. He gets mad when Peanut follows me everywhere. heehee I made an appointment for him to get groomed next week, and the week after that he gets SNIPPED. Maybe he will calm down. He is SUCH a hyper dog.

Jake and I are okay. This schedule he is on (nights) has been hard on us b/c we are so out of our normal schedule for hanging out with eachother. Pretty much during the week we don’t SEE eachother…. no hanging out, no conversations, nothing like that. Just the usual taking care of the boys and eating quick so he can get to work. Kind of a bummer. We were able to hang out a lot this last weekend though. Friday night we hung out together and did our own Valentines thing here at home. Then on Saturday night we went out with friends to the restaurant on base that has a bar….there was a Valentines comedy show that night complete with a dinner. We had fun, food, drinks, friends, comedy….it was a great night. So much fun. And hilarious! It was nice to be out for several hours with another couple and not have the kids. They have a 5 year old and a 14 year old so their older daughter watched all of them. And we never had to leave base!! Sweet!

So anyway, not a lot going on here as you can tell. We literally never leave the house unless it is to EAT or obtain food or diapers. The winter hasn’t made us TOO crazy so far, but I will admit that I am FINALLY at the point where I really want to go outside, even just for a walk. And yes, it is too cold. While the temps may be in the 20’s (yes, that is a HEAT WAVE here!) the wind chill ruins it. Bummer. Oh! The other day when I was getting my hair done I was talking to a woman who has lived here her whole life, I swear she was around 80. Anyway, 80 years old, lived here her whole life….she said this is the most snow she has EVER seen here. SEVERAL people have said that who have lived here their whole lives. I think it’s funny that we come here the year they have their worst snow ever. Gives me hope for next year! HAHA!!

Howdy

I feel like someone who is extremely late for an appointment but still hoping to get in and be seen. I’ve started this year off HORRIBLY with my blog. I have no good excuse for neglecting it (*cough*TWTTTER*cough*) so let me just give my bad excuses and hope that gives me a pass go with any readers I may have left.

We are extremely DULL and BORING. Unless you care to hear about how much food has been fed to the dog when I wasn’t looking only to have Dylan say “UMMM MOMMY! You are NOT gonna like THIS, but PEANUT just ate food OUT OF my HAND!” to which I say “well did you hand it to him?” to which HE says “ummmm, yeah.” Or you might find the fact that, after keeping count one day I SERIOUSLY SERIOUSLY changed 10 poopy diapers  interesting, then well I guess to you I wouldn’t be boring or dull. Just stinky. Or how about how I can go two days without showering and no one bats an eye. Yeah, because THAT’S so glamorous. Oh oh oh! And my favorite tidbit, we didn’t go into town for an entire MONTH, and there was a two week period where I KID YOU NOT, I didn’t leave my house once. So, if anyone finds any of that stuff interesting, I’m sorry I wasn’t posting.            

My other excuse would be because I have the memory of a goldfish when it comes to our minute by minute activities. I mean REALY NOW, who wants to hear a play by play of our entire day?! Highlights would be better don’t you think? Me too, however I can’t seem to remember them. I called my mom earlier today SECONDS after something funny came out of Dylan’s mouth and she didn’t pick up. She called me back about 10 minutes later and I could not, for the life of me, remember what he said. And I can’t always write this stuff down. For instance, when I called her, I was in the middle of making chili. I can talk and cook at the same time, but I can’t cook and write at the same time. Better if I just get it out now, share the funny with someone, and move along. Problem is, she’s not the only one who would find it funny. Problem is, after I tell her it’s out of my brain forever. Actually, PROBLEM IS, if I don’t tell someone within 2 minutes, it’s still going to be out of my head forever. See my problem?

Bad excuse number 3. It’s too loud to think. Actually this one might be pretty legit if you consider the noise level of my house on a daily basis. I need quiet to process and think. My house is NEVER quiet. I have three boys. Three loud boys. Three loud boys who scream like girls and run like elephants. Three loud boys who scream like girls, run like elephants, who have been stuck indoors for the last three months. It’s a bit loud in here. In fact the only reason I am doing this now is because it is 12:30 at night, I can’t sleep, and I’m in bed, and I’m avoiding Facebook and Twitter right now so they don’t suck the ever blog lovin life out of me. So yeah, I don’t like to post when they are up because I can’t finish a thought, let alone a post, when they are sucking the life out of me needing my attention to look at pictures, or crafts, or make them their 50th freaking snack of the day. *smiling makes me seem less crazy*

Another attention grabber for me was some personal stuff that I couldn’t get out of my head and it was hiding all the blogable stuff. I had to get it out and process it and just GET IT OUT. So I did. And it’s got it’s own home on a new private blog and that is where it’s going to stay. It wouldn’t have been right to put it all here, which is what I was WANTING to do, but that would have been very not nice of me. This IS a family friend blog. HA!

So, now that you are up to speed on the fact that we stay indoors, don’t shower, eat a lot, make a lot of noise, change a million poopy diapers, feed the dog people food, and have the memory of a goldfish, I will go back to hiding in my mommy cave and maybe come out by the end of February when hopefully all of the snow has thawed. That was one long sentence was it not?! Dang.

Anyway, just kidding. I will try to be better about this here blog. I’m really not happy with how I’ve let it slide and I need to focus a bit more and just get with it! I’m hoping that when/if this snow ever melts we’ll get out more and actually have something to say! Actually, I took the boys to Darbyland (funny name huh?) to play on the indoor play structure and OH MY WORD that is a whole other blog post….. seriously. Let me just say, I HATE having to parent other peoples kids especially when they are huddled at a table with their friends sipping coffee ignoring their kids. Good stories there. Which I will return with at my earliest convenience.

So please, take a number and I’ll get back with you then.