I can’t believe I’m posting this….

….but the boys and I made a “ROUGH” video to test out. It is a new way for the Grandparents to see and hear the boys. Give it a looksee….but please look over the fact that Dylan is picking his nose and I have a double chin. K? THANKS!

Drama Queen at your service!

So, once again, we all know I love me an apron right?!

My Dear Mom has called me “DQ” for so long I can’t remember her NOT calling me DQ. Short for Drama Queen obviously. She has passed this on to Dylan, at times calling him a DK, Drama King.

I was THRILLED when I opened up one of the presents from her. Seriously folks, aprons make me happy!

 

I will wear it with pride!

Christmas Eve Craziness!!!

Here are a few pics from tonight! More to come tomorrow! Merry Christmas!

I love me an apron! Especially this one!

Here’s a pic of me wearing the awesome apron from Dear Sweet Alece. I absolutely LOVE it! Right after this picture was taken I quick made some meat muffins for the fam and then headed out to a Mom’s Christmas party. Aprons make me happy. heehee  (pictures courtesy of Dylan)

Well hello there strangers…

Okay that was cheesy. But I feel like it’s been a while since I did an ACTUAL blog post. Like, really put EFFORT into a post. Well folks, tonights the night!

I’ve been writing in a notebook at night before I go to bed because I have OCMTOD. Obsessive Compulsive Morbid Thoughts Of Dying. Yes you read that correctly. Anyway, always at night I lay in bed and have all these thoughts I want to get out and things and feelings that I want to make sure get HEARD…..and what if I don’t wake up in the morning?! Seriously people, this is how my mind works. Even on medication. What really started this was a bad day with the boys….that night I laid in bed thinking about how MUCH I love them and then tons of feelings and memories of them just floaded my mind. I thought “wow, today was REALLY bad. I wish they went to bed knowing what I am thinking RIGHT NOW instead of what I was yelling before.” So I decided to start writing these things down at night…. some of my more personal thoughts. Things I wouldn’t typically blog about because these kind of “thinking binges” only come when I am in bed at night. So, I’m going to post them every so often because it’s a bit deeper than my normal posts….and I like deep posts. I would like to write *type* deeper posts.

12.13.08

Today I wrote a blog post on what I am thankful for titled “A Christmas Miracle” Today I felt great joy with my life and surroundings. Despite the freezing cold NEGATIVE temps and the cancellation of something we were looking forward to, I have peace and joy. I am happy. I am in love with my family, no matter how challenging they may be at times, I am so in love with them my heart swells.

12.16.08

Thankful for the ease with which I have been blessed by God. I know that I am extremely blessed and the biggest blessings have come to me fairly easily. So much so that I find myself sometimes wondering if the “shoe will drop.” I know I can’t live in fear like that. That it is just Satan trying to steal my joy and my blessings. I also often wonder “why me” and “why not so & so?”  I have two people that I love very much and they are hurting a lot. I just don’t understand God’s plan sometimes. I find myself thinking “it may be good for me now, but my time will come where I will be mad at God and question Him.” Those thoughts scare me. There are some things I will never understand this side of heaven. I am reminded though that even still, God is to be praised….as hard as that is. I understand how that could be so hard to do. Yet even so, we are to do it. Please God, help us understand. Amen.

12.19.08

• I am so excited for the days ahead!
• I feel such a relief that Jake is off for the next 9 days!!!
• My heart was both saddened and blessed tonight for two reasons. One being that I received a WONDERFUL present from my dear sweet friend Alece…an APRON from her trip to Italy. And we all know how much I love aprons! That of course was the blessing. The sad thing tonight was the news about Caylee Anthony’s remains being identified. That shook me to the core. My heart was so heavy and hurting. I was so sick at my stomach. It was awful.
• I love having my husband around. He makes me laugh and he is comforting.
• I miss my mom and granny A LOT.
• My sister has been on my mind and heart a lot lately. I should call her but I’m nervous and a little scared.
• I miss my nieces terribly. I was talking to Jake about them tonight and I started to choke up. I stopped myself from talking before I started to cry. Just can’t go there.
• Out of all the boys, Aidan affects my heart the most right now. He seems very upset and angry and that hurts my heart. he is stubborn and passionate. I worry about him. I just want to hold him and tell him he is loved but he does not want affection right now. He gets VERY upset when you try to hug him or kiss him or when you tell him you love him. Makes me sad.
• Every night as I lay here, I feel OVERWHELMING love for my boys and for Jake. So much. And I know God could take it all from me at any given moment. *sigh* I am realizing that all too much lately.

’tis the season!

’tis the season to watch these two movies over and over and over and over again!!!!!

Mary, did you know?

This is my favorite Christmas song…. actually it’s probably one of my all time favorite songs. Listen to the words. Read the words. Think on them. Pray on them. I’m amazed everytime.

Mary, did you know
that your Baby Boy would one day walk on water?
Mary, did you know
that your Baby Boy would save our sons and daughters?
Did you know
that your Baby Boy has come to make you new?
This Child that you delivered will soon deliver you.

Mary, did you know
that your Baby Boy will give sight to a blind man?
Mary, did you know
that your Baby Boy will calm the storm with His hand?
Did you know
that your Baby Boy has walked where angels trod?
When you kiss your little Baby you kissed the face of God?

Mary did you know.. Ooo Ooo Ooo

The blind will see.
The deaf will hear.
The dead will live again.
The lame will leap.
The dumb will speak
The praises of The Lamb.

Mary, did you know
that your Baby Boy is Lord of all creation?
Mary, did you know
that your Baby Boy would one day rule the nations?
Did you know
that your Baby Boy is heaven’s perfect Lamb?
The sleeping Child you’re holding is the Great, I Am.

Recycled: My Favorite Things

I originally posted this back in February. I took the “My Favorite Things” song and just rewrote the words to actually be MY favorite things. Enjoy!

 Beaming boy smiles and little baby kisses
Long brown eyelashes and magical wishes
Pulling around all their cars with a string
These are a few of my favorite things

 Warm cups of hot chocolate and marshmallow minis
Special treats and good eats and magical pennies
Watching them run and gleefully sing
These are a few of my favorite things

 Boys in blue jeans with dirt on their knees
Hearing “I love you” and “thanks” and “please”
Kissing their boo boos after a ding
These are a few of my favorite things

 When my head hurts
When the dinner burns
When I’m feeling mad
I simply remember my favorite things
And then I don’t feel so bad

It’s a Christmas Miracle!

The miracle being this post of course.  However, this is going to be short and sweet folks. Maybe short. Definately sweet. 

The other night I had a HORRIBLE dream that Jake died and I was forced to remarry that same day. I had no choice in the matter. It was almost like an arranged marriage. Funny thing was this guy was also in the military, but judging from his outfit, I think it was Army. (no thanks!) The whole reason was because “you need someone to take care of you.” So, I remarried instantly. The guy in this dream was horribly boring. He was NOT FUNNY. His lack of humor made me miss Jake so much. There were points in my dream where a situation would arise that Jake and I had been in before, and Jake had somehow turned it into something funny….and this “new guy” found no humor in it at all. My whole dream went on like this. I woke up horribly sick to my stomach and an ache for Jake (“hey mommy I rhymed!” says Dylan). When he got home from work that morning (he’s working nights for training) I was so relieved to see him I almost cried. It was an awful dream. The kind where the feeling sticks with you all day.

Tonight we were supposed to go to Jake’s squadron Christmas Party. They were providing free childcare in the next room, and if you got their earlier enough you get score a free drink at the bar. I was excited to spend a night with ADULTS and enjoy a drink with dinner (just one… meds aren’t forgiving!) and possibly win some money at the drawing. Squadron Christmas Parties are always fun and full of contests and games and giveaways. I bought my “smart casual” outfit for it weeks ago. I hate when something is “smart casual” b/c I’d rather be dressy that “casual” at a work party. Anyway, I found something VERY cute that I was VERY excited to wear. Plaid straight leg low rise pants with a fitted mock turtle neck deep purple sweater and black heels. SO CUTE. I have been looking forward to this for weeks. Did I mention that? Anyway, this afternoon we went to have lunch at the BX and pick up some stuff and we ran into someone from work who told us the party was CANCELLED due to the blizzard.  geeze people, it’s *just* a blizzard! hahaha! Easy for me to say, I live one block from where the party was. So, Jake and I were totally bummed over this. We were desperate for a night out and instantly started devising plans to have a fun night out. After weighing all our options, we decided to stay home and have a “party” with the boys. We made cookies, had pizza, let them have a SODA! and watched Christmas stuff on tv. We introduced them to the Rockettes tonight. HAHA!!

After the boys went to bed, I got started on wrapping presents. FIVE HOURS later, I crawled out from under the paper and ribbon and bows and climbed up on the couch to join Jake. We sat and watched old reruns of Fresh Prince and other old shows. I laughed more tonight with him than I have laughed in a long time. At one point tonight he recited the ENTIRE courtroom scene with Jack Nickelson in “A Few Good Men.” The whole scene. Word for word. He even switched characters at the appropriate time. I thought I would pee my pants I was laughing so hard. I was instantly remined of the dream I had.  I am so thankful to be married to someone who makes me laugh harder than anyone else. I am thankful that he and I “get” the same jokes and have our own inside jokes. I love that when I wink at him, he knows what I am saying without me saying it. I love that I can make fun of him when he watches movies (he talks to himself like there is someone sitting next to him watching the same thing….it’s hilarious really!) and he laughs at me making fun of him. I love that he and I both find this blizzard we are in absolutely hilarious because we’ve NEVER in our lives seen weather like this.

God knew I needed laughter in my life so he gave me Jake.

Jake proposed at Christmas time 8 years ago. What a wonderful present it has been.

Something I learned from my dream….. I would rather be single than married to someone who isn’t funny. Actually, I’d rather be single than be married to anyone other than Jake.  ♥  Obviously.

p.s. I said it would MAYBE be short, and definatey sweet.

O Christmas Tree!

I only used about half of our Christmas tree ornaments this year. Down side to putting a tree in the corner!

To see the rest of our Christmas decor… a “holiday open house” of sorts… and to read the stories behind the ornaments……just click HERE.