Longest blog post ever

Today was SUPPOSED to be library day but that didn’t pan out. We, not so wisely, went into town last night and were gone too long so the boys went to bed late. They slept until 9:45 this morning!! That is amazing for Dylan who wakes at the crack of dawn. Dylan woke up in a mooooood though. His arm hurt b/c he slept on it funny so he laid in bed with me and whimpered. I had to get Aidan his bath and let his leg soak. A bit of background here: He has an infection on his inner thigh. It started out looking like a little zit or ingrown hair and he scratched it and it got really infected b/c it’s in his diaper area. It is HUGE and gross. I had to drain it several times yesterday and OMG it was disgusting. Only for my kid would I ever do something that gross. Draining an infected wound is not something you would willingly do for someone else. He is on anti-biotics for it and has bactroban to put on it three times a day. I also have to let him soak in a HOT-as-he-can-stand-it bath 2-3 times a day. That has been taxing b/c he SCREAMS when I scrub it (doctors orders) and he fights me like crazy when I have to drain it. It hurts him SO BAD.   So anyway…. where was I? Oh yes, Aidan had to have his bath. So, I did that and then we all four went downstairs. I of course got online for a bit. I really am addicted. I need help.  

The boys only wanted cereal for breakfast so cereal and fruit it was. Tell me, why do they NOT want a hot breakfast of eggs and toast or pancakes and fruit? Seriously? HA! I hate giving them cereal b/c 1) it’s messy and 2) I feel like since I am home with them I should make them a warm breakfast. I spent too many mornings giving them cereal before and then had horrible days with them b/c they didn’t have a good enough breakfast, so now, it’s only about once a week.

Today we woke up to SUNSHINE! instead of the rain we had yesterday. I quick got them dressed and sent them outside and they were outside ALL DAY TODAY. It was great. I am loving our house here b/c I can see right out to the back from the kitchen/dining area so I just let them go. And living on base I feel totally safe having them be out there “alone.” It’s great too b/c we live on a corner and they are rerouting housing traffic by our house while they build more housing…. so we get a lot of “traffic” by our house. Traffic that only goes 15 mph! That’s a plus. Dylan and Aidan think they are slowing down just for them. They wave and yell “HI!” to everyone who drives by. It’s so cute. If someone doesn’t wave back Dylan says “UGH! They didn’t say HI to me! And I even said ‘my name is Dywan!’ to them and they didn’t see me!” HAHAHAHA!! Cracks me up!

I played outside with them for a while today before lunch. We threw this boomerang around that my mom sent for Dylan’s birthday. They call it a frisbee though. We had fun playing out there for about an hour….hour and half or so. After that we came in for lunch and then I let the boys play in their play room for a bit and then it was nap. Owen had fallen asleep on Jake while he was home at lunch so he was already down. yeah! (we need a thumbs up smiley btw!) During nap I called my mom and Tara answered. She was at a property with my mom so she answered and we chatted for a bit. Tara is an old friend from all the way back to 6th grade. My mom cleans rental properties that Tara manages. They spend a lot of time together…. just enough to make me jealous of the both of them! I talked to my mom a while and after that I dinked around here. I hung up some pictures and stuff, rearranged some things I had already hung up. I am so bad about decorating and redecorating. Nothing stays the same long. I finished up with some of that stuff and then got online and had an IM chat with Papa (Indian Lake Papa). I always love chatting with him. Too bad the boys interrupted our chit chat.

After nap it was outside again for some bike riding in the backyard. I didn’t play outside with them as much this time. I was trying to get stuff cleaned up inside and just kept checking on them. Eventually though Owen and I went out there and we all had a snack and tossed the ”frisbee” around again. Jake got home fairly early tonight, a little after 5, so we all came in and hung out a bit. The boys played in their play room and Jake of course conked on the couch in front of the tv. The boys didn’t last long playing, they joined him and watched Sponge Bob, or as Dylan calls it “Psonge Bob” HAHA! I love it! I got up and made dinner….chicken and veggie stir fry over brown rice. YUM! And then of course…..what else would we do…. but go BACK outside.       The weather here is so nice for being out when its not raining. Not too hot at all, and not cold either. I am loving North Dakota weather so far. After awhile it was time for baths and the dreaded draining of the wound. ICK. Luckily I think it is done draining b/c I couldn’t get anything out of it tonight. Poor kid, I have to literally sit with his legs UNDER mine and my feet holding his arms down b/c he fights so hard for me to not even TOUCH it. I feel so bad. He screams “you are hurting me mommy! Don’t do that to me!”    Everytime I do it I think “why couldn’t we be taking him back to the doctor to do this b/c this is so not fair to have a mom do this.” I hate it.

All day today I was emailing the lady we are buying the cockapoo from. You can see a recent picture of him HERE.  She is being a little difficult.  :???:   She has expressed to me that she would prefer it if we didn’t buy him and instead bought his brother b/c she thinks he (the one we want) is too timid and when she saw that we have boys (when we went to see the pups) she emailed me later saying she wasn’t comfortable with the idea of him going to us and encouraged us to get his brother instead. I told her no, that we wanted HIM and not his brother. We don’t like the look and color of his brother, and when we were there looking at them, his brother kept biting toes and was really rambunctious. We want a more laid back dog and this little guy was just so sweet. We totally want him. So, we need to give a deposit and I kept emailing her so we could line up a time to get it to her, and she woudn’t email me back all day, and I know for certain she does emails for the dogs all day. She’s a breeder, it’s what she does, and before she has always been very timely. Well she finally emailed me back late tonight and said it woudn’t work for her right now and she’d get back to me.  *grumble*grumble* I hope she’s not trying to put us off so we don’t go through with getting that puppy.

Tomorrow is a MOPS meeting here on base, but it’s the second to last meeting, and I’m not sure I want to bother going right now since they only have two meetings left.  They will resume meetings in September, but I guess throughout summer they will meet informally for little events. The problem there is, they all already know each other and I don’t want to jump in when it’s not going to be structered stuff. I would feel like I was crashing a party or something. PLUS, it’s at 9:30 in the morning and I am SO not ready to meet somewhere that early yet. At all. I sound lazy I know….but my kids sleep in! Well, Aidan and Owen sleep in.

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Just now I had to go in to Dylan’s room and calm him down. He had a horrible night terror. He gets these around this time of year, which is very odd. I have kept track of them and they are consistant. I figure its from over exerting himself outside in the sun….I’m not sure. It is very weird though. And his dreams, they are also consistant. It’s always a strange man bothering him. At home in Oregon, it was a man that he said stood in his doorway with a long black coat and a black hat. TOTALLY freaked me out. It was always the same though. I started to get very creeped out when we’d go in there and he’d be SCREAMING and trying to get away from this man he “saw.” Well just now he was standing on his bed screaming and when I walked in he threw himself on the bed and started thrashing and when I held him he just SHOOK like crazy and kept screaming saying “HIM….” and then not saying anything at all, just crying. I feel so bad for him when this happens. *sigh* I just started praying out loud and rubbing his back and he calmed down enough to look at me and tell me about his dream. He said he was in our house and a stranger was outside on his bike and he was mean. That’s all he’d say. I hate bad dreams.

Okay friends, if you’ve read this far, bless your bored little hearts. HAHA! Jake just said “do you know it’s going to take someone an HOUR to read your blog?!” HAHAHA!!!

Redirecting

So I’ve been thinking about my blog lately.

I’ve kind of gotten off course from what I started this out as. I’ve been sort of jumbled and feeling like I’m not making any sense. I started out doing this as a journal about the boys, our life, my life, a place to sort out thoughts once in a while. I feel like I’ve ventured away from that. And I’m not happy about it. At all.

It’s left me feeling frustrated b/c I feel pressure (complelely put upon by myself) to come up with something cute and witty or deep and thoughtful. While I can do that sometimes, it’s not really what I want to do….so why do I feel like I need to sometimes? Probably b/c I have been reading TONS of blogs that are cute and witty or deep and thoughtful and I think “now THAT was a great read!” and those always get me thinking….. and wanting to post what I’m thinking…. only I don’t want to.

Sometimes, don’t you just want your thoughts to be YOUR thoughts? To keep to yourself? It doesn’t matter that everyone out in the blogosphere knows what I’m thinking about….does it? I don’t think so. And besides, that’s what my email is for. Blogging has brought me GREAT friends that I have shared some amazing emails with and I absolutely love that. And that is where I think I will keep my deep thoughts. For now.

I’m getting back to what I intended my blog to be about. My life and my boys. I’m sure the grandparent’s will love that!